Radiation Station

When doctors say you are CANcer free, it’s such a weight lifted. However, that weight is replaced with insecurities, recoveries and new discoveries of how your life will NOW be lived! Before I was diagnosed and long before I new anyone with CANcer, I thought CANcer free meant that’s it… everything is all good, back to normal. Hair grows back, strength is restored and life is great! I am learning in MY journey that there is no such thing as CANcer free…

RADIATION STATION
Taking on CANcer is like riding a train; You have to get on that train, ride and pass many stops and then when you reach your station, you still have to go up and sometimes down and cross bridges to get to your destination. Sometimes you just want to get off regardless of if it’s your stop or not (DENIAL) and at times you just want to ride because you are too tired to get off and go where you need to go (EMOTIONAL STRESS). If that seems like a strange analogy, just know, when you are a CANcer warrior, you try to find anything that will explain the journey. I got on this train to good health at the Chemo Station. While on this train, I went through many dark tunnels. I wanted to get off but I knew I wouldn’t make it to my destination. My engineer (GOD) assured me there was ligh at the end of the tunnel!  I rode on…I continued on my journey and got off at Radiation Station. I’m here for 33 treatments until the next train comes along. I completed treatment 19 this past Friday and have 14 more to go! I am looking forward to the next train as it will take me to my final destination, Improved Quality of Life!

Roller coasters, trains, staircases, war, fire, all analogies used to help others and themselves relate to CANcer and the journey.  For some, it is all they can do to think about what next, what does this mean to have CANcer, what will life be like.  Train stations make me think of transitioning.  Going from one destination to another, leaving the past moving to the future.  My train will be leaving Radiation Station within a few weeks leaving the majority of my CANcer treatment behind me.  I am excited to continue on my journey to a better quality of life.  Looking forward to moving forward and transitioning to helping others in their journey.  Reality will have it that the future is uncertain and the ride will be long, but I am secure in the fact that GOD has a destination for me that my train will travel to with dignity and grace.

My CANcer Wisdom to you:

Travel lightly and enjoy the ride.  Your journey will have ups and downs, uncertain turns and perhaps some bumpy rides.  Appreciate the trip and know your station is forthcoming where you can get off and lead a healthier and more meaningful life.