Broken and Fixed

As we move ever so quickly into 2020, I think about this past year as a stepping stone to PEACE.  Since Pinktober, I’ve been in a place of uncertainty and trepidation.  I’ve prayed and I’ve prayed.  This journey has been hard but it has been fulfilling.  I keep reminding myself that God chose me.

Over the years, I have seen myself as lots of things.  NEVER have I EVER seen myself as a cancer survivor.  I couldn’t imagine the suffering, the emotional toll on myself, family and friends, nor the financial obligations worse than ANY student loan!  But 3 years ago, I found myself with a prognosis that was questionable at best. 

I am ending this decade with a new outlook on life and a BROKEN spirit that is now FIXED!!!  I have learned so much and have become better for my journey.  I’m grateful for new opportunities and new friends, new spiritual growth and new FAITH.  My journey took my life they way God had intended.

I came across this story on Facebook and was moved to tears as I reflected on me being BROKEN and FIXED.  I am the glowstick and God “broke” me!

“I was in Dollar Tree last night and there was a lady and two kids behind me in the LONG line. One was a big kid, one was a toddler. The bigger one had a pack of glow sticks and the baby was screaming for them so the Mom opened the pack and gave him one, which stopped his tears. He walked around with it smiling, but then the bigger boy took it and the baby started screaming again. Just as the Mom was about to fuss at the older child, he bent the glow sticks and handed it back to the baby. As we walked outside at the same time, the baby noticed that the stick was now glowing and his brother said “I had to break it so you could get the full effect from it.”

“I almost ran because l could hear God saying to me, “I had to break you too show you why I created you. You had to go through it so you could fulfill your purpose.” That little baby was happy just swinging that “unbroken” glow sticks around in the air because he didn’t understand what it was created to do which was “glow”. There are some people who will be content just “being” but some of us that God has chosen, we have to be “broken”. We have to get sick. We go through divorce. We have to bury our spouse, parents, best friend, or our child because, in those moments of desperation, God is breaking us but when the breaking is done, then we will be able to see the reason for which we were created.”

Happy New Year to Everyone!  2020 awaits bigger and better things to come!  God Bless!